Nap time hasn’t been so pleasant since Ethan got into the toddler bed. Therefore, I haven’t had a lot of time to write a post. Right this moment Ethan is sitting by the door of his bedroom singing loudly and playing with the springy doorstop. My only hope is that he doesn’t disturb his sister who is not a happy camper when woken up before she’s ready. If only there were a safe form of electric fence I could put around his bed.

This week I have been reading for Every Free Chance Reviews as usual. This week I have started reading for my October theme. I bet you could guess what I’m reading. That’s right, horror novels. I used to read a lot of Goosebumps, Fear Street, and Christopher Pike novels when I was younger. I couldn’t get enough. There is something about trying to terrify myself that seemed fun at the time. Now as an adult I find horror novels scarier. Why? Probably because I have the feeling that in this day and age something scary could happen. Especially since I am reading the book Intensity by Dean Koontz. Have you read it? If not I will tell you that I have been feeling like I am going to have a panic attack at any moment.

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The kids on the other hand are not reading something scary. Instead they have been enjoying Llama Llama Hoppity-Hop by Anna Dewdney. I found the Llama Llama books while teaching daycare. My two year olds LOVED THEM. I got sucked in and I was happy when I could share them with Ethan and Emma. They love how they rhyme and they love the pictures. This cute little board book is one that even Emma is starting to read along with me.

llama llama

What are you reading?

Crib Break!!!

This week Ethan hit a milestone. It is the one that strikes fear into any parent. You know once you sweet bundles of joy turn into a toddler, anything is possible. They get into your trash and nibble remnants of lunch, they climb tables and perform a tap dance, they throw tantrums in the middle of any roomful of people, and they learn how to climb everything. It doesn’t matter what kind of surface it is either. Toddlers find a way.

Ethan decided that it was time to climb over the crib rails. He had broken out of his pack-n-play while at the in-law’s place and managed to get down the stairs without them knowing. He strolled into the living room like nothing was out of the ordinary. I would have given anything to see their faces but it’s when I knew everything would change. I would only be a matter of time before life in this house changed forever. It just happened sooner than I desired.

Luckily, I was there to see the whole thing unfold in his room. I had just cracked the door open to get him from nap when he was getting over the rail. I just stood there in shock and awe. My little boy was reaching a milestone. He was stronger and smarter. I couldn’t help but in that moment feel a little proud. YOU GO BOY!

That night we cracked out the toddler bed conversion kit. I figured we might as well rip off the bandaid. The husband did it in no time and Ethan loved the idea of being able to get in and out of bed himself. The “big boy” phase is here. Emma even joined in on the fun and proceeded to jump around like a jumping bean.

I started thinking, maybe everything will be ok after all. He likes it. Maybe he will sleep. Kids sleep the first night no problem right? Everything could be fine.

Well husband and I were wrong. The first night Ethan was a living, exhausted nightmare. He didn’t want to sleep and everytime we shut the door he would kick and scream bloody murder. It was like they were fliming a horror movie in my house. Hell, I thought I was living in a horror movie. I wanted the madness to stop. I wanted my sweet little boy who could sleep all through the night with no problems.

The next morning I dubbed myself an honorary cast member of The Walking Dead. I was shuffling my feet and groaning. However, instead of calling out brains!! I was calling out coffee!!

I didn’t know if I could do it. Transitions are hard for anyone but I was scared that this would be how the whole week was and then when he didn’t nap. Well I just didn’t know what to do. He had to be exhausted, HAD TO BE. Why was he refusing sleep? I went online and Googled everything I could think of and that night was armed with ideas.

ETHAN WAS GOING TO SLEEP!

And guess what? He did. He was so exhausted that he passed right out with no issues. Then today he actually took a three hour nap.

HALLELUAH!!

Tonight after a long evening he curled up in a ball and fell asleep. I think the key is to make them play until they want to face plant into the mattress.

Does anyone have an experiences with crib to toddler bed? I would love to hear them.

What Cha Reading?

I have been a bad blogger. I haven’t been keeping up with my posts. Life got a little crazy. One of the best ways to get crazy is travel. The husband and I took a mini-trip to Orlando, Florida. He and I went to The Wizarding World of Harry Potter and I geeked out. I got a wand, I drank a lot of butter beer, and bought a great deal of chocolate frogs. We also went to Magic Kingdom in Disney World. I got to meet Tinkerbell, Mary Poppins, and basically enjoy the magic of Disney as an adult. I find that my husband and I are huge children.

I did however get some reading done while in flight. I got First Class after all because my husband has status on the airlines. I guess that’s one thing that the husband’s business travel is good for, even if I hate it at the time.

The book I managed to get halfway through is a book club read. It’s The Light Between Oceans by M.L. Stedman. I have to say even though I find myself getting rather depressed while reading it; the story is powerful and well written. I can understand why it is a bestseller and why so many have responded to it. This book is definitely one that will touch any woman who has dealt with infertility, miscarriage, and loss of a child. It hits home and I find myself tearing up while reading it. Even men who read this novel I think will be touched by it in some way. I haven’t finished it yet but I do know that it will leave me pondering it after I do.

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Ethan especially as been loving No, David by David Shannon. He likes to read it along with me. Now that Emma has heard it over a million times she likes to point out things in the pictures. I have to say my favorite picture is David streaking down the sidewalk.

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What are you reading? Anything good?

The Good, The Bad, and The Ugly

I don’t believe that every body needs to be perfect to be beautiful. I think all shapes and sizes are gorgeous on men and women. I think that beauty is not just about size but about the personality. Sure we have things that we’re attracted to physically. I know for me I wanted to marry a tall, dark haired, blue eyed, Scottish highlander type man. Did I marry that? No, but the man I married was physically and emotionally attractive to me. I knew he’d make a great father and support me. We’d help each other be the best.

However, when I look at myself in the mirror I see a whale. I don’t see someone very sexy. Now I know those around me probably think I’m crazy. The truth is though i have low self-esteem when it comes to my body. I love my eyes and my lips. I use make-up to enhance those parts because they are special to me. It’s just everything else that lacks. My tummy area being the number one part that I wish would magically turn flatter.

I know i won’t be a Victoria Secret model and quite frankly I don’t want to be one. What I want is to be healthier and happier. I truly LOVE my curves. I don’t want to be super thin. I have a big chest and honestly I’d looked like some disfigured Barbie if I somehow got super thing. All I want is a slimmer mid-section and a healthier lifestyle.

I want to chase my kids around and wear bathing suits without wanting to cry. I want to be able to go into a fitting room and not have to give myself a pep talk. I want to express to my children as they get older how beautiful they are without feeling like I’m some sort of hypocrite.

My friend Jessica got me started with 21 Day Fix and Shakeology. What I will tell you is that this journey is not easy. The workouts make me HURT. I’m so very out of shape that it’s crazy to me. I need to keep up with the workouts and tell myself that modifying certain moves doesn’t make me a slug. I need to keep trying with my diet even if I falter a few times. I just love food and it’s ok to treat myself but not all the time. I know that I need more water in my diet even if all I want is a venti coffee or tea from Starbucks. And I know that my yoga practice was so important to me as was my jogging. I need to pull up my big girl panties and start working it.

I will fall down. I will fight to become a healthier person but something deep inside this low self-image is a beautiful curvy woman.

What Cha Reading?

I have been a bad girl. I haven’t been blogging as much as I should be. Life has gotten crazy and with the Fourth of July things got nuts. Not to mention my husband’s birthday is on the Fourth of July. We planned a huge party and there were tons of friends, family, sangria, beer, and smoked meats to go around. Oh yeah, Dairy Queen ice cream cake too. Mmmm cake!

The kiddos went to bed at eleven last night. I will say things got messy when we hit about eight o’clock. We were headed to go to the fireworks and Ethan had a MELTDOWN. I don’t call him Meltdown Man for nothing. I didn’t think we were going to be able to sit through the whole fireworks display. Yet by the grace of God we got to the field and he just stopped. He started to play and have fun. I was relieved. It’s the little things.

This weekend I also got some reading done. (Gasp!) I stayed up a little longer than I should have to finish a book. It was a good book. I really liked it. It was the perfect summer read. It only made me wish that I was at the beach. It was called The Beach House. It was by Georgia Bockoven.

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The kiddos have been obsessed with parts of the face. Emma likes to climb up on your lap and tell you where your eyes, ears, mouth, and nose are even if it means poking them. Ethan has followed suit. This book by Caroline Jayne Church is a fun book for the kiddos to learn even more parts of the body. It’s called Ten Tiny Toes. It’s simple and the kids are starting to memorize it as we read together.

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I hope everyone had a great weekend!

And what are you reading?

I Want You to Love

Today was a huge day. Same sex marriage was ruled legal in the fifty states. That’s a huge thing and one that people have been waiting for a long time. It got me thinking about my own children. I know that I would be supportive if either one came up to me saying they were gay. I may not fully understand every feeling or emotion but I will understand love. I know what it’s like to love someone and want to marry them. I know what it’s like to love someone so much that you want to have children with them.

So that’s what I want for Ethan and Emma. I want them to know that no matter who they chose to love. They have my support and my undying love.

How is everyone else feeling about today’s happenings?

What Cha Reading

I truly hope that everyone had a wonderful Father’s Day. I know that we celebrated with a delicious steak dinner and a glass of red wine.

This week’s reading selections were again interesting and fun. We’ll start with the kids’ selection.

dadaTruth be told I love Jimmy Fallon. I have a crush on him. He has a great sense of humor and seems down-to-earth. Now I don’t know him personally but I think he’s the kind of guy that I could see myself hanging out with. This book isn’t hard to read. I mean there is a chance my kids will be reading it to me. However, what I love is that we can go over animal sounds and identify the animals. Ethan especially loves this book and I think it’s a cute read.

domThis is another sexy read. It is the second novel in The Submissive series. It wasn’t award winning literature but it was a fun read. It was the perfect book to read after I wanted to run out of the house screaming. I definitely wished that I was on a beach somewhere reading it. You know with a tropical drink? Oh well, a mama can dream.

Hope everyone had a great Monday. What are you reading?